So it is pretty late on Saturday night. I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life and where it is going.

In Septmeber I had surgery because I was having a lot of pain. My doctor decided that he was going to do a laporoscopy when he wen to perform the surgery he found that my Uterus and tubes were completely covered in scar tissue. The Doctor thinks that he has removed all of it but he's were not sure so on Monday I go for another procedure that will take x-rays of dye going through my tubes to see if the blockage is cleared.

At this point in my life I had always thought that I would some day have children of my own. I have 2 step children that for the most part are wonderful but they both have a mother and I am only the step mother. I will never have the same bond with them that they have with their mother. I see the way they look at their mothers and the love that they have for them and it is not the same type of love that they have for me. I want to feel that bond and make that connection with my own child.

I am going to be 30 soon I have as career, a husband, a home, and a dog. I dont want to sound like I am being ungrateful but I want a child.

I guess I wil have to wait and see what happens.

Well you have visited my first blog page. I am 29 years old, yup that's right I turn the big 3 0 in 6 months and 10 days. I moved to Michigan from Buffalo, New York when I was 23 for a job and planned to stay for 1 year. I met the man that I would eventually marry after being here for only 6 months he is Canadian. When we got married we had to choose where to live and we decided to make Michigan the place where we would start our lives together. We have been married now for 3 and half years. It has been a long and hard journey. When I made the choice to move here I did so knowing that it would be hard with no family or friends here. My husband and I bought our first home together about 3 years ago it in quiet community by the lake. This is where we met our "Michigan family". It is so nice to have family in Michigan too. It is amazing how your whole life changes by making one choice. I have 2 step children and a dog. My step daughter is 16 and my step son is 8. My dog, Hooch, is 3. So that's a little bit about me. I am excited to start this blogging journey and meet new people.