BUSY

Hello all. I have been very busy. I started reading the Harry Potter books. I might be the only one left on the planet that has not read them yet. I just started book two. Book one was pretty cute.
So my husband and I have decided to look into being foster parents. I have done my du diligence and I think that this may be for us. I have also made an appointment with the specialist and because of the hours that they have and my husband’s hours at work we were not able to get in until April!!
I am missing home (Buffalo) lots lately. My husband and I are trying to get caught up on some bills so we haven’t had the extra money for my usual monthly trips. I haven’t been home since x-mas which is a pretty long time for me.

KIDS

It is Saturday morning we have to go get our taxes done. That should be fun. Probably not. We had a sleepover last night with all of the kids. They sleep in our playroom/spare room when they come. Our bedroom is right across the hall. I sat up last night and read while I listened to the kids talk and play. It almost sounds like adults talking in they weren't kid voices you would never know. They grow up so fast. My step son Josh, who is going to be 9 in a couple of weeks, was only 3 when I met him. I stilll remeber when he wouldn't let us wash his hair while in the bath tub because he didn't want to get his face wet and now he hangs out with his friends and has sleep overs. Soon he will be wanting to hang with his friends all of the time and won't want to have sleepovers.
I went to the doctors yesterday and as I suspected I have to go see a specialist to see if there is anything that they can do for us. We are going to start the home study process for adoption in the mean time.

Well I have to go more later.

Thank you

So I went to my appointment yesterday and it did not look good. I still have to see my physician on Friday so that we can go over the options but the doctor that performed the procedure said that it did not look like by tubes were cleared.
I am going to be optimistic until I see my Doctor on Friday.
I know that everything happens for a reason but sometimes that reason is not so clear. Maybe I was given step children because I was not meant to have my own children. Only time will tell. I am sure that one of my options will be another surgery but I am not sure if that is the best option. I am also sure that there is not guarantee that it will work. Maybe I was meant to help some child out there in this world that needs to be saved.
Becky I love you too. I am so glad that we met. I am glad to have the support of my friends. I know that I will have my child some day. I was going to calll you yesterday but I wa feeling yucky and wanted to jsut lay on the couch and do nothing.
I am grateful to have this blog to be able to get everything off my chest and hear everyones input thank you for your support.